Sorry about the shortage of blogs. Blah is how I have been feeling for the last 3 weeks or so. I have been sick for the third time this year. I never get sick.
I have been here for almost 6 months (13th). How is it going? Well it has its ups and downs, lately more severe than usual. Everything is always hard to do. So often I find that I would rather stay in my apartment than try to brave Korea. As I write this I feel so selfish. There has been a lot of death and sadness in some of our closest friends lives, so my concerns seem so lame. Part of me really wants to come home, but then what am I going to do?
Korea is not the place to be when you are trying not to concern yourself with where you fit, or what you should have accomplished by a certain age. A common opener is 'how old are you?', 'are you married?'. To the latter question I have resigned myself to just saying yes, as there is no Korean equivalent for common-law or shacked up.
I came to Korea for money and now I am paying for it. Whenever a person is motivated by money, the bottom always falls out. The money is not what I thought I would be making. I had intentions of paying off my student loans within a year, but that is far from likely. I am not sure how long it is going to take. That will teach me. I am going to do some better research so that my motives for being here, move away from money.
As for the job, I give teachers all the respect in the world. I am NOT a teacher, nor have I ever or will ever claim to be. I can not connect with these little kids. For one they have no idea what I am saying nor do they care. My older kids on Saturday I really enjoy as we often talk about things that I can't exactly ask my peers. Kids are so honest and they don't factor in what the country would want them to say. The last President recently committed suicide, so we talked about that. They were also able to tell me a little about their political views. I wish I could have those kind of classes all the time. I love being around people, just not little people.
I was thinking that I should become fluent in Korean and pursue a job in tourism or some corporate job. But once again I am the lazy foreigner (in comparison to a Korean) and have not taken any steps to get my shit together.
I am sorry for bringing you all down, I promise not to write the shitty stuff anymore, except for my funeral experience.
I hope you are well
Peace
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