Friends- explained

The relationships that we keep are an important aspect of how we view and respect ourselves as well as an incredible (and enjoyable) tool for building up our self-esteem. You may find that you dread encounters with certain people but look forward to meeting up with others. This is your internal way of steering through the good, the bad, and the sometimes ugly. Focus your effort on those who inspire you, make you feel good, and bring overall positive vibes into your life. The others who like to unload their baggage onto you, who give you daily doses of guilt or shame, or who are just plain negative can find their own path without your energy to sustain them.

Friends, thank you for being GREAT!!

Quiz Result-

 This is the result of some on-line quiz called "From Self-loathing to Self -love". I think it is pretty accurate.

Not Super

You aren't a total mess, but you sure have room for a little healthy ego strengthening. You can be critical and unforgiving of yourself. You find your value by facilitating other people’s happiness and often put their needs before your own. You are quick to take the blame when things go wrong, and you tend to get in your own way by not allowing yourself room for mistakes or time to learn from them.

Day 45

WoW! 45 days. It is really creeping up one me. Last night I practiced Yoga at my gym, Korean Kartel. It was a great change to the regular routine. It was also amazingly focused and intense. Usually at the gym my mind is angry, sad, tired and worried. However, in this yoga session I was able to stay focused and concentrate on the movements and the breath that is needed to be successful in this type of setting. It was really great. I will be practicing every Wednesday, and soon Saturdays (once they add the class).

As the days dwindle down, I'm really beginning to worry that I won't be able to shed these last 5kgs before the deadline. I don't want to do anything to drastic to drop the weight, but I really want to lose this weight. I really have to pump up the volume. Changing or rewiring my mind and body is a much harder, longer, and powerful journey then I ever imagined. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being out of control. But, I'm also tired of talking and thinking about health all the time! I know that until I reach my goal, this is how its going to be. Once I reach my goal, I know that I will JUST be an active person who  chooses the right meals and the portions and the right activities. 

Can't wait....for everything ^^
Get out there, take a walk.

Getting old SUCKS!!

Since it has been a year for getting healthy and getting tested to make sure I am healthy, yesterday it was time to visit the dentist. I think it was 3 years ago since my last visit. Oh, how I wish I could turn back the clock. Turns out my mouth is after itself. The dentist used this fun little camera to take pictures of my disgusting teeth. I had to ask the hygienist to turn it off as it grossed me out and I almost started to cry. She proceeded to clean my teeth which is going to be the first of many trips to the office. It turns out my back teeth are attacking each other. He actually said " I'm not sure what I'm going to do with this one!" Shit, I'm screwed! He suggested that we will do a root canal on that tooth which will require many visits to the office. The same tooth on the opposite side is going to require a crown as it is not so badly damaged. Among the other procedures I will have to replace two fillings.
So, I guess this will be my birthday present to myself as its going to expensive. I hope I get put under for this canal job-- the drills are already haunting me!

This guy is so FUNNY!

Russell Peters is hilarious. Enjoy!

Day 58

This has been a tough week at the gym; mentally and physically. Yesterday, Simon and I got to have a chat while everyone had already finished at the gym. He was giving me some guidance about losing weight, because he knows how desperately I want to do this. He told me that I must do other activities as well as his weight and conditioning classes. I was honest with him and told him that I haven't went for a run since the 10k. He also reminded me how important it is to switch my diet and exercise routines because my body will become to familiar with it and stop burning off fat as effectively.
All night this has been on my mind. When can I fit in my runs/ walks (because he did say that power walking can be more difficult than running)? I have realized that I need a routine. How do I break the routine of going to the gym? My gym is terribly far away, but its just what I do: leave work get on the subway for 25 minutes and go.
I'm worried. Tomorrow I will go for a run around the park. Then I plan on having some fun time at the beach with the ladies. 

Keeping changing and keep growing ^^

Day 60

Holy smokes it is exactly 2 months before I'm 30! What a scary/ liberating feeling.
Scary because I had hoped I would have been further along in my weight-loss/ personal wellness journey. I know that this is truly the beginning of a life of health and happiness, so I will try not to get to hung up on that.
Liberating because I will be able to release myself from all things high school (and early university days too)! I don't hold to that as much as I used to, but I can't wait until those memories and experiences are long gone. I have built a great life. A life that I always dreamed of, and its only going to get better. I can't wait to see more of the world and really appreicaate the experiences that I make. The world is so big, I just can't get enough. I have been making great friends from all over the planet, and I can't wait to visit them in there home countries.

Cheers to 30!!

Day 61

The gym is fucking tough. Yesterday, I had to fight back tears in the middle of the work out because I was frustrated, in pain and wanted to give up. Luckily I had a partner who kept talking to me. We finished! Thank gawd. It was great practice for my mental training. I would have been more disappointed if I would have quit. While the sweat was running into my eyes and my breath was eluding me, I just began to focus on one movement at a time; hands down, feet out, push up, jump. Damn, I'm glad its over!

Workout summary: Time Circuit
10 Kettlebell pulls (10kg), 20 pulse push ups, 1 burpee
10 kettlebell pulls (8kg), 19 pulse push ups, 2 burpees
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Last round: 10 KB pulls, 1 pulse push up, 20 burpees
TIME: 39:33

After we finished, I rolled around in pain and was filled with exhaustion. I FINISHED that is all I could think.

Weekend Recap

This past weekend was nothing special, which is exactly what I had planned. Our apartment is a little cleaner and a little more organized and now we have a little cable TV too. On Saturday we went to a movie with a couple of friends. The new Xmen movie was much better than I ever thought it would be. We went to the Lotte cinema in Seomyeon. Lotte is one of the largest companies in Korea. This location is a huge department store with hotel and duty free shop. Our friend Yoon-mi has a Lotte credit card in which she can collect points. She shops there a lot. With this she has gained access to this VIP lounge where she can grab a coffee and a rest anytime she feels like it. So us poor folk tagged a long and enjoyed the free food. I was not dressed to be in this lounge, but I don't think it mattered and I was the only one who cared.

In the top picture is Mark and Stephany. She must have been laughing at something funny I said. Yoon-mi is in the next picture. She is the one who shops a lot to get all the points. As you can see from the background the room is cozy and comfortable. I don't think it really matters about what you wear or how you look. However, for the truly big spenders there is a fancier more exclusive lounge on one of the higher floors; unlike this one which was in the basement.

Day 65

I'm 2 pounds away from having a healthy BMI (Body Mass Index)!! Sweet.

Day 67

Today at the gym was awesome. We were doing a timed based workout. We don't do things for time very often, as people can get sloppy in their form and really injure themselves. Our workout today was a small circuit; Squat push-press and Burpees.
It went something like this SPP:50  B:10  SPP:40   B:20   SPP:30   B:30  SPP:20   B:40   SPP:10   B:50.  It was really hard. If you have never tried a burpee you should. Anyway my time was 23:58 with an 8kg weight for the push press. The most fit guy there did his in 19:55 so I was really happy with my time.

Long Weekend

This Monday was a national holiday. These are my favorite days in Korea. There were a lot of things going on in and around Busan. On Sunday we went to Haeundae beach. The sand festival was going on as well as the Busan International Dance Festival. The dancing was cool. There were teams from Japan, Netherlands, Mexico, US, Korea and Israel. Some were dark, some were slow and some were so energetic. The Japanese group was definitely my favorite.

The sand festival is held annually. This year the festival was much bigger. There were many childrens activities. There was also music and of course the sand castles and sand sculptures. The beach was packed so I didn't take many pictures as some one was always walking in front of me.

On Monday we traveled to Geoje island. We had heard many good things about it. We had hoped to go on a pleasure cruise through some of the smaller islands. However, they were all sold out when we got there. We went to the beach, but it was full of garbage. We had a really delicious lunch. We got on another bus and went to another bus station.
Near the bus station was a POW camp. It was fairly horrific in parts. But then again war is always horrific.
This statue is at the entrance of the park.

Open Class is Over!!

Once a year we have to open our classroom to the Principal, Vice Principal and any other people who would like to come. I'm happy to say the class went off without a hitch. The principal in her limited English thanked me for my trouble.

However, the lead up to the class was to much. Yesterday during our practice I totally bombed. The reason was that I misunderstood the direction of the game and how to play; therefore I could not begin to explain it to the kids. But this morning was much better as I understood the objectives.

 This morning we had an hour spare before the moment of truth. We spent that time preparing the classroom and needlessly freaking out. Another teacher was in the class moving the desks and shit. We spent 10 minutes shuffling the desks back and forth, back and forth. WOW.

The students came 25 minutes early!! The other teacher knew but of course I did not. The students came in and sat down and fussed and went to the bathroom and were given instructions; none of which I could follow/ understand. The kids began asking questions about me. I could only hear my name amongst the chatter. Finally, the other teacher said "They are worried about you". I guess my body language and standing idle for almost half and hour was beginning to show on the infamous Mandy face. I gave the response "I'm fine" which they all could understand.


I'm so happy this day is over! What a unnecessarily stressful day.

Today's Lesson: Learn to control the Mandy face better.